The title for this post just popped into my head (for it is, indeed, off to bed that I am heading) and I wondered where I had heard it before. I just googled it and apparently it was Samuel Pepys, the famous English diarist, who used it, at the end of every diary entry. Ye cannae say that you don’t get educated on this blog, eh?!
It’s interesting, isn’t it?, that a seventeenth century man is most famous for his diary. Sometimes I feel so self-indulgent and pathetic when I write on here every day about my life, and my little insecurities, but it just goes to show that people have been doing it for centuries, and nosy parkers will always be interested.
However, I digress…
The bedtime title of today’s post is because it is nearly 10:30 p.m*. and I really, really, really want to try to start getting into a habit of going to bed much earlier, around the same time each night, if possible. I have never been one who likes going to bed early because I always feel like I’m missing something if I do. In nearly thirty-two years on this planet, however, nothing really exciting has ever happened to me when I purposefully stayed up late. You’d think I would learn, wouldn’t you?, but nope.
If I had a normal job, and had to be at work every day at a certain time, I’m sure my bad bedtime habits would sort themselves out by sheer dint of necessity. That’s what used to happen, anyway. However, with the massage, I can start when I want, and I often I do. I’ll end up staying up late, surfing the internet pointlessly, just because I don’t have a job and responsilities to attend to the next morning. I know that some sex workers love the freedom of this job, but it’s really not for me. The lack of routine and structure makes me feel unstable and confused. I find it hard to be productive and get anything done.
Yesterday, when I was reading more about Ayurveda and about my body type, Vata, I saw that it’s really important for me to get to bed early, and get up early, too. Routine is apparently also essential. This is something I’ve always known about myself, so I need to make some lifestyle changes.
And so to bed!
* Now, it’s nearly 11:30 p.m. because Midwestern Man brought me a brownie, and we chatted for a while. Sigh. At least I’ll be going to bed before midnight. Still a major change for me.